~February 2019~
For The month Of February I most likely felt inspired a bunch but of course now I can’t even think of a single time. So I’m just going to show you a particular quote I found in my reading. It’s from the novel They Both Die At The End and I loved this novel to pieces and how it’s so real and immersing. It really makes you stop and go back and read what you just read again. When I read it for the first time, I zoned out and when I went back to re-read the page I couldn’t move forward without writing this magnificent quote down.
☆ “Entire lives aren’t lessons, but there are lessons in our lives.” – Adam Silvera ☆
Tell me, does this not make you feel empowered? It’s such a strong message and we need more of these upliftments in our daily lives. When I saw this quote in the book I couldn’t help but read it again and again to the point where I had to write it down in my journal. It’s truly powerful when you think about it because we as humans don’t give much time to ourselves and we take life for granted or spend too much time regretting things that we did in the past. But that’s where it is important to realize that life is all about that. It’s all about taking those chances and if you miss you miss but at least something came out of it. So we might as well enjoy it right now and take the good out of it and leave the bad behind.
~March 2019~
Another month passing by so quick and yet another month without being inspired. March flew by so fast, I think we can all relate. If I actually went on vacation for spring break somewhere, I may have had something to share but nope. I just stayed home and was bored. So the best thing to do is to go back and look in your journal and read though those fantastic, unfinished, vomited breadcrumbs you left. As I was going back, flipping through the pages of my journal I read every single page and my eyes fell upon this quote and were glued to it. Here’s my emulation.
☆ ” Sometimes I can feel my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living. ” – Jonathan Safran Foer ☆
Life can be hard and very confusing. At times we don’t even understand the life we live. What if we could go back in time where our hopes did not get crushed. What if we could gain more acknowledgements of our rights rather than giving ourselves the harsh criticisms of our wrongs. What if we could adventure the Earth infinite times without being held capable of our flawed actions. What if we strive harder to actually reach our successes, instead of losing all hope and giving them up. We go to sleep every night wishing for a better tomorrow. But we don’t do anything to make it happen. We just hope it will. And nothing ever changes. We’re giving the universe the chance to deny us . We are giving the universe a chance to remind us that were not worth it. while it’s easy to say, it’s better to try and fail than not try at all… We know ourselves and we can’t survive losing that game. But living like this, always anxious…honestly, we’ve come to find that this is sustainable.
When I wrote this, some of me may have chosen those words to describe myself but the idea behind this was to sum every lost being in general. I didn’t choose to write about me personally but some of the words just came out. I was thinking of people in general, on this earth, on this planet. Sad people, anxious people, frustrated people and wrote in their senses. This is nothing I’ve done before but it was neat to experiment with. This quote opened my eyes to realize that the life I’m living right now can be worth it. It can be worth it if I stop and think about how I want to live it.
~April 2019~
How is it already April? The month of spring showers and gaining a sense of renewal. The month where we start counting the last few weeks of school we have left and start making our summer bucket lists. This month was really busy, I mean every month is, I don’t have an excuse anymore. This month is a special month for me because it’s the month of my birthday and I personally don’t really like to celebrate my birthday but this year was special because I turned 16! I didn’t throw a huge sweet 16 or anything but we kept it more family oriented and all of my cousins came over and I haven’t seen some of them in a couple years so it was an interesting experience but also very difficult. Filling people in on the last 6 years of your life isn’t easy. So my biggest inspiration this month came from a gift I received from my aunt. She lives in Pakistan but she came all the way here to visit and it was very special. She brought a bunch of gifts but the one that is the most special to me was actually a small, delicate, rose pendant. It’s not made of diamonds or gold but it means just as more to me than anything in the world. It’s sheen crystal presence awes me and it’s just so beautiful. As I wore it I couldn’t help but think about all the things I could write about with this and what type of stories this single pendant could create. So that’s what I did. Below is just a rushed piece that I came up with, a very, very quick write but maybe in the future it can weave its way into an actual piece.
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As broken as she was she couldnt help bare but touch the bloody deep cuts on her pale cheeks, which used to be full of colour, but now, the natural blush of her beauty was nowhere to be found. They had completed her job for her. It was over. A broken pendant lay shattered in two congruent pieces in the shallow night snow outside only two miles into the forbidden forest. Her mind couldn’t register it. So much had taken place in the last twenty-four hours, her mind was racing. The pendant lay there, motionless, without its shimmer and life that it had possessed before. As the touch of dawn hit, the white doves flew ahead from mountaintops and as the sun rays emitted the gorgeous hues of orange and tinted red, that’s when she knew the birds has cascaded it. It was over.
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~May 2019~
I feel as though May was my month. It was my month where there were a lot of things happening in my life, good and bad, but for the most part, things happened in which I learned from and I felt as though it was the month I felt my best. It probably makes no sense but it was just a month where I spend a lot of time on myself and dedicated a lot of my time thinking about life in general. May was the month in which Ramadan truly began. Muslims fast for 30 days and I felt very much connected with my religion throughout these days and learned so much about it. Ramadan is a special and holy month and it’s a month where you seek forgiveness from god and better yourself with his help. It’s where you seek guidance and help from the almighty and go for comfort when things aren’t going as planned. It’s a month of peace and spreading positivity and good in the world, because let’s be honest, there can never be enough of that. So during ramadan I felt inspired because I felt as though I could connect to it I actually understood the reason behind it and I do feel like a better person now because of it. It’s kind of like a fresh start and once it’s done your soul feels cleansed and it cleared my mind of everything that was going on in my life before it took place.
This month I had a chance to visit an elderly home called Bow View Manor in creative writing class and it changed my perspective completely on life and how I now want to live mine. We had a pleasure to meet with elderly folks and got to have special conversations with them and I was paired up with a friend and we visited a lovely old lady who went by the precious name of Goldie. Her story was so beautifully captivating. She emphasised on how living without happiness in your life, is a life unlived. In her room, she hung up various pictures of her dear family members like;her children, grandchildren, and husband. She was a very family-oriented women and had fascinating goals, (although some of them were not archived) she mentioned how happiness was her main key to a successful and long living life. She was definitely a sweet and cunning women who I could talk to days and days on end with. She was super kind and warming. I hope to follow my own journey of life using her advice and inspiring words. Elders are truly wise and truthful people.
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